Telogen Effluvium

I've had trouble waking up the past few mornings. Well, more than trouble. Actually, I've turned off the alarm, so it's more like I've had failure to get up the past few mornings. I am not sure, but maybe as I have been messing with the aromatherapy stuff, it has been messing with me.

Did you ever feel like your body was telling you to do something, but you weren't sure what it was telling you to do? I have been having a lot of that lately. Much of the time, I walk around semi-disconnected, in the physical sense. It's as if my head is connected to an apparatus that is moving around and taking care of business, but there's a whole other part of me that is engaged elsewhere, you might say. Sometimes, I have the sensation that my stomach is floating six inches above me. Odd, I know.

These past few days, ever since I started experimenting with the plant medicinals, I have felt connected to the apparatus. It's a strange feeling. Not always familiar. I noticed it right away, and I felt OK with it. Then I started feeling very quiet, like I just wanted to listen and pay attention to everyone. When I went to bed at night, I slept hard. Heavy, like in water. It was difficult to get up. My body feels different, like when I was doing that cleansing fast. I feel a change every time I put plant oil on my body.

For instance, I get migraines three or four times a week. Yesterday, when I put geranium oil and juniper berry on the back of my neck, they made an oncoming headache go away.

The past two months I have missed my period. I don't know why, unless it is the stress I have had with the kids and the ex. I've also noticed some hair loss. It's called telogen effluvium - stress-related hair loss. I've had it twice before in my life, once when I lived in South Carolina, and another time when my ex-husband was being especially mean to me. This is the third time. I noticed it first in my hairbrush, that I had to clean it more than usual. Then I started seeing stray hairs everywhere – on my clothes, in the sink, on the bathroom counter top. I have long hair, so when it falls on my shoulders or clothes, it ends up tickling me or getting in my face or something annoying like that. Finally, I found myself having to clean a whole bunch of it out of the bathtub after a shower. It's unnerving, but eventually it stops. Or you go bald. One or the other.

Whatever.

I haven't found the essential oil for that one yet.